I know, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve given any attention to my little ol’ blog. The thing is, life has been anything but eventless (I did succeed in jinxing things when I said in this post that I thought life was beginning to calm down again…who could’ve predicted. I brought this upon myself, I know).
But what can I say, in the words of the majestic TSwift: I’m on some new shit / been saying “yes” instead of “no”
Has it been working out for me? Who’s to say. Some days I wake up with stomach aches, other days I feel courageous enough to do anything. But hey, can’t say I haven’t been giving life my all ✌🏼
(help)
(1, 2, 3, let’s go, bitch)
This past weekend I spent much of the two days out of the house, which, honestly, I kinda needed. On Saturday I went on a date (don’t get too excited, he was definitely not my guy), and Sunday was a ✨girls day✨ (which was much more fun).
Unfortunately I woke up on Sunday feeling so out of sorts and depressed (it was for sure a stomach ache day) that I considered whether I felt up to partaking in the Eras experience at all.
Remember when I said in this post how I didn’t like movie theaters? Well it was only Taylor Swift and a date with my sisters and little cousin that made me reconsider my stance on the whole thing. Because this was something that I wanted to do. I wanted to share this experience and create this memory with my favorite group of girls.
pregaming an event with a craft? that’s my jam
So even though doing things last-minute is my literal nightmare (I can assure you that I have many stress dreams about it), I ended up altering my dress and making a handful of friendship bracelets hours before we left for the theater.
(at the end of the film we swapping our bracelets with the cute little girls who were singing and dancing down by the big screen the whole time — adorable. I hope they remember us forever)
Did we start losing our voices halfway through the 3-hour show? Absolutely. We were a bit concerned. But we endured, and it was amazing. With all the clapping and the singing and the people dancing on the stairs in bedazzled pants — it was so much fun.
just another 2023 photo album moment, nbd
I’ve never considered myself crazy enough to be a #swiftie, but sitting there realizing that I could sing every word to almost every song on the 40-song setlist, made me start to wonder. I mean, I’m not embarrassed to admit that Miss Swift is an absolute fucking star. I’ve grown up listening to her music, and the lyrics get more real with each passing year.
When I told my Saturday date that I was heading to see the Eras movie the next day, he jokingly asked me if Taylor Swift made me feel empowered as a woman. I laughed, but I told him point-blank that I wasn’t gonna lie — there’s a reason she’s one of the most well-known and popular artists in the world. She’s put our every experience, emotion, and thought into lyrics that make us feel things even deeper. And y’all know it’s not only for the girls and gays — you can admit it, men, you all have that one song that you wanna add to the playlist.
folklore (deluxe version)
I teared up multiple times, and when All Too Well (10 minute version) came on? It might’ve been considered group therapy in the theater. What a vibe.
Sometimes you don’t really realize how big a part of your life something (or someone) is until it’s put into perspective. And the moment she started singing Fearless, I was pulled back to being 10 years old and listening to it on repeat. And then there I was, sitting in a dark theater, 15 years later, still remembering every word to the song.
(and relating to them 100x more)
just another thrifted find giving all the folklore vibes
It wasn’t just going to the concert movie that made it a memorable experience either, it was the fact that I was there with the people that I was. Having my 14-year-old cousin be at the age where we can have these fun experiences together is amazing. We all dressed in our eras outfits — Taylor and I channeled Folklore (how many times have I listened to Betty?? The world may never know…but my Spotify certainly does), Riley Mae repped Reputation, and Ellamae had the perfect pastel Lover vibes going on.
(I really wanted to dress Bejeweled for the occasion, but my closet currently lacks head-to-toe sequins…disappointing, I know)
Did I come home with a headache? Most definitely. But that’s the price you pay for creating a new core memory. Absolutely zero regrets. These are the moments that make life endurable…even in the midst of being a tummy ache survivor™
art by jordan rae 